So, where was I? Right, the aftermath of the vet clinic visit.
Today the cats went back for teeth cleaning and possible mouth surgery. Yesterday's visit included a whole bunch of blood work, both as a pre-whatever for the anesthesia, but also because both of them have significant trouble with their teeth and gums.
Today's visit took the entire day, as they had difficulty recovering from the anesthesia, always a possibility with cats, sad to say. I have never lost a cat to anesthesia drugs, but it is worth the risk because they simply cannot have mouths that hurt all the time and the additional risk that poor dental health causes to some internal organs, including their little hearts.
So, under they went and several hours later I received a telephone call that they were doing well, but not waking up very well. They were supposed to come home at 2 p.m., then 3, then 4:30, and I was finally able to fetch them at 6. They have lots of antibiotics and pain medicine, syringes for today and two more days. Because I used to tech, I can call them on Friday and come in for more, need be.
They, the clinic, expressed some of the the blood drawn yesterday to one of the state labs so that they would get results sometime today. It seems that someone there suspected that there was more going on than just bad dental hygiene. They have feline stomatitis. They are allergic to the plaque that forms on their teeth between cleanings. How both of them can have this is beyond me. During the past forty-plus years that I have had cats and dogs, we have experienced lots of physical issues, mostly because we adopt animals that are health compromised in some way. We know to expect problems and that is fine. But, this! It is beyond my ability to understand. Worrying is that both FIV and FeLV are often present with this other immune issue, but the tests indicate that neither is there. Small favors. I get to be frightened about this for at least a week.
L had four extractions, two of which needed jaw surgery. C had one, and no one expected to have to do more than simply clean his teeth. We, the docs and me, are going to get together and figure out a way to monitor this and maybe have me do regular treatments and cleaning at home.
So, the good news is that we are going to be as proactive about this as possible. L is seven years old and C is just a bit over eleven and I am going to do everything possible to keep them around as long as possible.
The best news about all of this is that I had a lot of money saved for my next trip. Two days at the clinic and the bill is nearly $1400.00.
So, the kitties are better. Not that they were manifesting any behaviors regarding the sad state of their teeth, but that is the way of cats, they suffer in silence, and I think that that aspect is what is causing me such distress.
Yeah, I am still nearly incapacitated by the vet bill, but I cannot stop obsessing about the pain that L must have been in with those lesions on her teeth. Today is their last day of pain medication and I am thrilled because swooping them up and shooting this stuff into their mouths twice a day is doing nothing to improve their wariness of me or to help lessen my guilt about all of this.
The doc has assured me that there is not anything that can be done about this disease they have, but I am worried about either of them suffering again. I am also worried about how to pay for more treatments and surgeries. The mister was well prepared. He had everything in writing before we went ahead with this week's tests and procedures. I made certain of that. Another fear is that this is going to be like every other time that he approves something (although never before at this great amount) and then changes his mind after the fact, particularly when the bill rolls in. I am ready for this time, though. I have taken the full amount out of my savings for my trip and when he goes all insane on my ass about the costs, I will have the cash to hand to him. I probably should do that now, but I am holding back just in case he does not start yelling about the whole mess.
I am not sorry that I, we, agreed to do this, but L is seven years old and C is eleven and they have lots of teeth left, with lots of potential surgeries. I am so conflicted. I brought them into my life with the commitment to do whatever it took to give them a good life. They are mine and I am a faithful person. Hell, more than four decades of marriage proves that.
Just going to have to wait and see what happens. What is that thing about worry? Something like worry is payment on a debt you do not yet have, or something like that. I just looked it up, was only kind of close: Worry is interest paid on trouble before it comes due. ~William Ralph Inge
Here are a few more that helped me to feel a little better.
You can't wring your hands and roll up your sleeves at the same time. ~Pat Schroeder
Worrying is like a rocking chair, it gives you something to do, but it gets you nowhere. ~Glenn Turner
If things go wrong, don't go with them. ~Roger Babson
Worry is rust upon the blade. ~Henry Ward Hughes
Somehow our devils are never quite what we expect when we meet them face to face. ~Nelson DeMille
Well, that one is just plain wrong...they are always worse.
Oh. This is all about love. Simple and plain, love. I do not think that I can put a limit on that. So much the worse for this situation, but loving is worth whatever it takes.